HOW...

vulnerable do I want to be today?
First, The MC's have a new cousin. A woman child, to borrow the phrase from Mrs. Moore. The first in a line of men children. Blessings and well wishes to Dude and Jesi and WC 1:)
As happens to most of us, being at the hospital brought back a flood of memories. It was the same hospital where I had MC 1. I could not help but remember how the day went. The people who came and loved on us while we waited. It made me a little sad. Why? Some of those people are no longer in the same position in my life, our lives, as they were then. I miss them. I miss the people we were then. At times. For a while we had a lot of fun. Good, clean fun. We were challenging each other in our walks with the Lord. We were having babies together, doing life together, growing up together. The last one is what got us. We grew up, and in doing so, we grew apart. We had different views on what should and shouldn't be. Not fundamentally bad, just not compatible. As fond as I am of those memories, seen with rose colored glasses I am sure, I know we can't go back. Any of us. I don't really want to. I like who I am now a whole lot better than who I was then. Do I wish we could be compatible again? Some days. More than that, I pray the Lord restores those relationships that need restoring and removes those that don't.
I pray my flesh stays out of it.
That seems to be the harder part.
To stop looking back over my shoulder.
To take the memories for what they are, enjoy them, and keep moving forward.
Which means looking forward, lest I fall.
Ugh.....so melancholy for a Monday.
Must be the weather.
Or a severe sugar crash from all the candy I consumed over the weekend.
Feel free to comment and let me know I am not alone on this one.
Please.....
Have a great Monday!